Christmas Gold

A few days ago Maybelline sent me a package with their holiday favorites. A cute warm toned palette, a red velvet lipstick, an eyeliner and a mascara. Today I tried all of them out to see how they performed and if I could create a nice glam look for the holidays.

The palette, which is named “Countdown palette”, has a nice mix of mattes, shimmers and glitter shades. It’s quite small and fits easily into a small purse or make-up bag so you can easily take it with you when you travel or just have it in your bag for touch-ups, which is really convenient. What’s a bit of a bummer to me is that the palette doesn’t come with a mirror and the packaging isn’t the most exciting. For a holiday release, I would like it to be a little more “extra” with the packaging. But hey, it does what it needs to do! 
 
The palette performs quite well, the colour payoff is good and I didn’t notice any creasing or fading during the day. My eyes get easily irritated which makes them water a lot, and that did sadly happen with this palette. I’m happy with the look I created and I do want to try it again to see if it was actually the palette, though. Sometimes my eyes just have a bad day.

I recommend applying the glitter shades with your fingers (that’s what I always do, and it worked here too!)

If you want to get this palette, I found it online for prices ranging between €10 and €18.

The mascara performed really well and definitely gave me very full, long lashes. The shape of the wand works really well and covers your lashes quickly and gives them a nice lift an curl. It feels good and doesn’t irritate my eyes even after a full day of wearing it. The eyeliner definitely lives up to its name, it’s incredibly precise and the tip is quite hard (but not too hard) and thin, so you can get a really crisp line or super precise cat eye. It’s a felt tip liner and I usually don’t like using those, but after some getting used to it I’m not mad at it. It doesn’t crack and still looks good after a full day of wearing the eye look. I image it’ll also be fun to use for small dots and detailing, but I’ve yet to try that out.

Online I could find the mascara + eyeliner giftset for around €17

Lastly, the lipstick. The SuperStay Matte Ink Lipstick in Pioneer. This might very well be my favorite item! It’s a gorgeous red that applies super smoothly. It’s a matte lipstick that feels very soft and velvety. It stays ever so slightly sticky if you apply it a bit too thick. It’s a matte-but-not-too-matte liquid lipstick. It’s long lasting and stayed on after eating lunch, drinking water and having a snack. Eventually I removed it (with oil) because my lips were getting a bit dry, but it was still looking really good! It also has a very nice scent. It’s not overly perfumed but has a subtle, sweet smell that reminds me of..cake? Cookies? Something delicious and sweet, anyway!

The price for this lipstick varies between €5,14 and €11,99, so definitely shop around to get the best deal!

All in all, these items are good and don’t dissapoint. The palette did irritate my eyes but, like I said, this happens often with me. It might be some of the ingredients. I’ve noticed that they used carmine, which also makes it non-vegan. Because Maybelline is not listed as a cruelty free company, I have never purchased any of their products, but I have hope that more companies will change for the better and think about sustainability and the creatures we share this planet with.

Below is some more information from crueltyfreekitty.com

  • Finished products tested on animals: No
  • Ingredients tested on animals: No (Note: Possible exceptions)
  • Third party animal testing: No
  • Tested on animals where required by law: Yes
  • Sold in mainland China: Yes
  • Certifications: None (On PETA’s “do test” list)
  • Parent company: L’Oreal
  • Parent company status: NOT cruelty-free

These points make me it hard for me to immediately recommend the products, but if you don’t care about products being vegan and your eyes aren’t as sensitive as mine (they’re quite silly, I get teary eyed super fast and they are dry and irritated a lot) then you might quite like it.

Lots of love

Necia   |   Josefien

And a year passes

Damn.

It’s been exactly a year since I last posted an update here. I wanted to say something about how time flies because it seems like only yesterday that I started up this website, but on the other hand it feels like a lifetime ago. Life has an interesting way of changing sneakily around you. You feel like everything is the same, but when you look back you notice all the differences. The growth. Things you’ve lost and things you’ve learned. The small changes over time that, when you look at the grand total, make a huge difference in your life.

This year has been a year of focusing on myself. Really evaluating my needs. Setting boundaries and being more open and clear with my family and friends. I wanted to become a better person not just for myself, but moreso for the people I love. I wanted to be more honest even when it was hard to do so. I wanted to stop letting in negative energy that would drain me of my already very limited energy. As a restult, some friendships grew stronger, some friendships were gained, and some were lost. I’ve noticed that some people simply don’t like to hear the truth because it can be too confrontational, and I’ve learned to accept that and leave people to deal with their own problems without trying to be a part of their healing process, because you can’t help everyone. Especially when you damage yourself in the process.

It’s a strange feeling when you constantly think you’re being selfish, yet people are telling you you need to think of yourself more often.

A big reason for me realizing what I needed in life was reintegration therapy. I have Fibromyalgia and mild Hypermobility, as well as Symphysis pubis dysfunction. These afflictions cause me a lot of pain and fatigue which really affects every day of my life. After years of struggling without getting proper help I finally found a place where I could get guidance. Where a team of professionals analyzed my mind and body and said ‘we can help you with your struggle’. And they did. Immensely. They made it very clear that I can not heal. I will not be ‘cured’. I am chronically ill. But they could help me find the tools to make my life easier. Though I still struggle with pain and fatigue every day, I have learned how to handle it a lot better. I learned how to focus on myself, analyze my feelings, take enough rest, to not feel guilty for not being able to do things (though this is still hard!), to plan my days and weeks in a way that maximizes efficiency and manages pain and fatigue as much as possible. To accept that, when I’m in pain, it’s fine to just lay down and take a nap! (shocking!)

I learned a lot about my relationship with myself and my body. I’m still not where I want or need to be, and some days it will feel like nothing has changed and I’m still the wreck I was a year ago. However, when I actually look at the facts and the reality, I’ve grown a lot. My focus shifted from “what does everybody think of me” to “what do I think of me?”, and trying to keep other people’s judgement out of the equation. 

My work is really important to me and my focus shifted completely to my photography business. Sometimes I lose myself in work and just trying to keep afloat, working over 12 hours a day, and other aspects of my life suffer from it. Impostor syndrome causes me to constantly try and prove myself to the world.

I am still trying to find the balance of work, relationships, relaxation and all of these model-blogger- influencer shenanigans. The issue is that I love doing all of these things and I want to do all of these things, but I let one of the things, photography and making enough money from that, take up all of my time and headspace. It ‘s not just a ‘focus on what’s important’ situation, it’s me being obsessive and sometimes using work as escapism. If I work hard enough and long enough I will forget about my feelings and needs. I don’t think that’s a healthy way to live, so I am slowly trying to reintroduce other things into my life. Trying to find ways to have fun, relax, and think of something else for a change. Yes I love photography and everything that comes with creating the perfect shot, my job is my passion, but the entire business side of it all makes me so stressed and gives me so much pressure to perform and be perfect, that it’s utterly unhealthy to be consumed by it 24/7. I need to create room to breathe so I can look at it in a different way. I need some distance so I can evaluate and move on in the right way. 

At the start of this year I created the self portraits that you see below. I had just finished my last therapy session with my psychologist and was feeling positive but emotional about it. It’s always strange to leave someone you trust with every feeling, every story and every emotion attached, and go off to do it all alone again. I went to the studio to do a couple of things, and of course got distracted.  I found this dress at the thrift store nearby for 3,50, tried it on, put on some Joni Mitchell and just let myself feel every emotion. I let my tears run down my face as I shot these self portraits. I think this release was the start of looking into my own emotions better. Differently. With more respect.

Restarting this blog is a way to do something different and fun. I can post whatever I want on here (mostly because, let’s be real, who even reads blogs anymore?! Nobody will ever see this!). It’ll likely remain a mix of personal life, vlogs, style and make-up and whatever else I feel like sharing. I’d love it if you’d drop by from time to time!

So, hey, if you’re still here, I want to thank you for reading through over 800 words of me trying to make up a cohesive story about what the past year has brought me. I’d love to hear from you about what this year has been to you and what you’re working on.

Lots of love

Necia   |   Josefien

 

Simple eye look

As requested on instagram, in this video tutorial I show you how to create a simple eyeshadow look!

Sorry for the bad lighting, I had to improvise because I don’t have my lights at home at the moment. Nonetheless, I hope you enjoy this new video! Due to some requests on instagram, I show you guys how to create a simple eye look using just one (affordable) palette and a few different brushes. Let me know what you think & what you’d like to see next! My content is not sponsored, all of these opinions are my own.

Products used in this video:

Products used off camera:

  • Essence lash princess sculpted mascara
  • Catrice Allround Mascara Ultra Black
  • L’Oreal True Match foundation (N1)
  • L’Oreal True Match Concealer (N1)
  • W7 Setting powder
  • NYX Cosmetics Duo Chromatic Illuminating powder ‘Snow Rose’
  • Milani blush ‘Luminoso 05’
  • Becca Bronzer ‘Bali Sands’

VLOG – NYX Cosmetics party

Me and my sister Anna-Eva went to the one year anniversary celebration of NYX Cosmetics opening their first store in The Netherlands!  They have since opened another store in Rotterdam and are also in Douglas stores across the country. As a fan of the brand, it’s awesome to see them pop up everywhere!

I  thought it’d be fun to bring a camera to the party to make a little vlog and take some pictures for you guys. If you like the vlog, don’t forget to subscribe to my YouTube channel to get updates whenever I post!
The party was so much fun, thank so much to NYX Professional Make-up NL for having us!

Pics below!! (Including many attempts to take a photo with Anna-Eva who was moving way too much)

Black & Brown

As the seasons change, I often feel like my style changes too. It’s getting colder and I am having a hard time putting together nice looks that don’t feel repetitive. Lately I have been trying to style some of the older and forgotten items in my closet. I have so many clothes that I never wear, that I decided it is time for another wardrobe clean out. A lot of stuff needs to be sold, given away or thrown away. Before I do that though, I want to give some of the items in my closet another chance! I’m sure there are a lot of cute things in there that I’ve only worn once or twice that deserve better.

I feel like every time the seasons change, or at least during spring and autumn, my wardrobe needs a  good looking at and sorting out. How do you go about these things? Do you just throw stuff out when you feel like you need change?

All of the things I’m wearing have been in my closet for 3 months to a year, so I can’t really give you direct links, because they probably aren’t available anymore. However, I will list where I bought the items, just in case.

  • Cardigan: Primark
  • Skirt: Forever 21
  • Boots: Lamoda
  • Top: H&M
  • Choker: Primark

Photos by Marco Edelman

Crossing lines

Do you, like me, feel like flaunting your beautiful lingerie sometimes? It might be inappropriate to walk around in your underwear (also, pretty cold), but there are a number of ways that you can feature your favorite lingerie in your looks without being half naked. In this case, I wore one of my absolute favorite lingerie sets, the Leading Strings bra and thong (though that does remain hidden!) from incredible lingerie designer Marlies Dekkers. I paired it with a mesh bodysuit (from the super awesome Forever 21 Plus collection) that, because of the strong black lines, really goes well with the design of the bra.  To bring some colour and softness into the look, I chose to wear it with a floral pair of pants.

Stylishly Merry

Oh my God, you guys. Do you ever come across that one product in a store that you just can’t take your eyes off of? That one thing that you just HAVE to have? For me, it was this eye shadow. It’s an ‘extra dimension eye shadow’ in the shade “Stylishly Merry” from the MAC Cosmetics holiday collection.

I haven’t really been into MAC for a while now, they didn’t really release anything that excited me, but that completely changed with this holiday collection. I’m absolutely in love with the packaging and the actual products, too. I visited the new MAC store in Utrecht a while ago and wanted to buy way too many things. I’m on a tight budget, so I only got one item. It’s incredibly pretty though, so no regrets! You will definitely experience some glitter fallout with this eye shadow, so be warned! It has a gorgeous colour shift going on that I tried to capture in the photos below. It shifts from gold to peachy pink and sometimes a little purple? I don’t even know.. there’s a lot going on, and I am here for it!

I used the eye shadow for a festive warm halo eye look. I’m already inspired by the upcoming holidays!  It’s quite easy to do but definitely looks glamorous and dramatic, which I really enjoy.

What are your thoughts on this make-up look and the MAC Holiday collection? Let me know!

Velvet ravens

A while ago I spotted these leggings on the Black Milk Clothing twitter page, and I instantly fell in love. Soft, velvety high waisted leggings with ravens on them!? I had to have them! So I splurged (BMC are on the pricey side, but worth it) and I couldn’t be happier with them. They are perfect for autumn/winter. How do you feel about leggings? I have quite a collection but barely wear them anymore. This pair really got me wondering why I gave up on them.

I like to pair leggings with long black tops like this one, or layer them with a cute top and a cardigan. I will definitely be wearing these more often, and might show you guys some different ways to style leggings in an upcoming post!

Pics by Marco Edelman

The Bees(over)knees

Autumn calls for overknee boots! The shining star of today’s outfit? These gorgeous Sacha boots with gold embroidered insects all over. I instantly fell in love with them. I’ve paired the boots with a cute faux leather mini dress and layered a cardigan and coat over them for a nice warm fall look. I wanted a fishnet look on the legs but I didn’t want to be freezing so layered my fishnets over some 20den Orublu Magic tights.

Glasses Osiris

Dark autumn

For this look I was inspired by recent runway make-up looks, autumn and Halloween. It all came together to create this warm and sultry make-up look with some serious grunge vibes.

Eyes:
@nyxcosmetics Prismatic Shadow in ‘Voodoo’ & Perfect filter palette in ‘Rustic Antique’
@limecrimemakeup Pumpkin Velvetine used as eyeliner

Face:
@lorealmakeup true match foundation in N2
@katvondbeauty Lock it concealer crème in Light 1
@beccacosmetics highlighter

Lips:
@limecrimemakeup Raven and Pumpkin

Earrings: H&M